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Friday, June 29, 2007

Realizations...


I realized some things about myself and my life this week...

This blog truly is a reflection of me and where my life is taking me this year. This has been a weird year. It almost seems like a mid-life crisis without there actually being a crisis. It is more like a mid-life realization that I don't want to live life on anyone's terms but mine. No expectations from others, just living my life the way I need to. This all started before I started this blog and has been a journey, but I realized this week how true to my life this year my "blog theme" actually is...

In February my car was on it's last leg. With 100,000+ miles, I decided to trade it in... on a cute little red car with leather seats and a moonroof. FUN! And so matching my personality right now.

Not long later a turning point occurred at work. A career move I was expecting - and had been promised - didn't pan out. This got me to thinking.... I don't want to do this anymore... not this job... not this industry... none of it... so what DO I want to do? That led me to pursue my teaching certificate. It was right there all along - and I should have done it a long time ago. If feels so right.

I have been reading the book Escape Adulthood. Funny thing is, it has a central theme of getting back to childhood - at least in how we see things and how we live our lives from their perspective. It is truly freeing. And it so lines up with the changes I have already made in my life this year... before I even found the book... it speaks to me and lets me know that what I am doing and the road I am on is the right one. Validation is a good thing.

Lastly, I made a decision this week. I ran it by some friends first, but the more I thought about it the more I realized I have to do this. For me. It brings back memories of my childhood. Wonderful memories. The kinds of memories I want my kids to have. I decided to make it happen. It is an entire 'nother post all by itself, but "it" fits in here, so I include it.

9 comments:

Laura said...

I'm so happy for you! What a great year...new (super cute) car, new exciting career on the horizon, and a future full of other fun things to look forward to as well!

Corey~living and loving said...

oooo now that right there is a teaser. tee hee...Can't wait to hear what you have cookin next! :)

Meghan said...

That book looks like a must-read for me right now.

Thanks for the linkage!

Ingrid said...

Amanda, I think it's great. I have been blessed with getting to you this year (on and off the board) and even though we don't see each other every day, I have noticed a change in you. I think you are entering a very exciting leg of your journey, and I am glad that I get to see some of it.

Hugs,
Ingrid

Ingrid said...

I meant getting to know you.

Amanda said...

Oh, Ingrid! Your friendship means so much to me!

Jason of "Kim & Jason" said...

WOO HOO! Good for you, Amanda! So happy to hear all the great changes you're making. It takes a lot of guts and courage, but there's no doubt that you'll be richly rewarded. It's an honor to know that my book helped validate the road you're on...it's cool to hear how its been impacting other people. When you're in the process of writing it, you always wonder if it will connect with anyone, or end up setting records as the most unread book of all time ;) I'm glad you've enjoyed it.

Lauren said...

I'm so happy that you are following your heart. Life is too short not to.

Lori- Fairytales & Margaritas said...

How cool! You definitely seem happier lately. I feel honored to have been on your journey with you.
Too bad I can't be on your other journey wink, wink.